I woke up this morning to a sweet little girl who cleaned up the downstairs and had a present for me and was not happy with me because she didn't get to feed me in bed because I got up too early. And then she sang "Mommy, I love you" to me in Chinese! And she's mine! All mine! She is my beautiful daughter that I get to teach and love and have fun with! She made me beautiful cards and I felt like the most perfect mom even though I am far from it.
And then I got to hold my sweet little boy in church while he smiled and babbled at me. When I came to sit down to write this, he frowned at me because he wanted held. I get to be a mom to a perfect child. I think that is the sweetest gift any mom could have. It might be the hardest but it is the sweetest. I am so grateful that I get to take care of my little Hyrum! I have had four wonderful years with him even though they have been the most difficult. I went months with him in my tummy thinking that would be my only time with him until I got to raise him in the millennium. =) But he came and he is still here and he is mine. I wouldn't change him for a "normal" boy. He gives me hope, love, and the motivation to go forward.
I wouldn't be the person I am to day without my two wonderful children who have given me the strength to move on and grow and want to be more and better each day. I want to be a good mom for them. I probably mess up more than I don't and I know I have horrible days when I want to give up. But then I remember that I am their mom and I want to be the person I am meant to be.
My little Hyrum is done being fed through his tube, so it is time to go outside and be a mom and play with my two children! Happy Mother's Day!
